I disappoint my brother
It was today, a funny feeling fills my mind,
A feeling that today going to happen something horrible,
That uncomfortable feeling eating me up,
Am I forgot something?
Did I do something stupid?
That feeling clash into a scenery,
An image that cannot be thrown away from my memory,
A group of teacher comes in without permission,
They told my class, it's going to be a check up,
My fear started to began,
I brought my belonging that doesn't belong to me, but also to my brother,
It was a stupid thing I brought it in class,
I am stupid, selfish, I'm such an idiot,
When a teacher coming near my bag,
It was found and taken such in a second,
My little heart trembles in a image came across me,
An image where my brother cries tear of disappointment,
It was taken away, and there's nothing to do about it anymore,
I'm in a corner where there is only regrets,
I regret I broke the law,
I'm stubborn, foolish, and idiot,
I let my brother down,
When I got home,
There's no other option to choose,
I must speak the truth in such a fragile unstable heart of a little boy,
When I spoken the words,
His face turn red, tears glowing from his eyes,
And cries yelled out,
Such a painful thing, to see a sibling cries because your own stupidity,
I wish I can undo today,
I wish I can turn back time,
I wish I'm not a moron,
No turning back, it already spoken,
I cannot take back my heartbreaking words,
I just can't bare it anymore,
The guilt growing inside me,
And I'm still in a deep confusion,
The 'thing' that was taken,
'It' can slow my brothers movement in education,
But 'it' can also, fills his days,
Am I doing the right thing?
Or just plain selfish?
I can't bare this,
I already have a tons of problems right now,
But, it still coming to me,
What can I do now?
I... I'm confused...
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